Sunday, February 08, 2009

This pregnancy...and a question

My goodness, I'm only 23 weeks pregnant and I feel like I'm 40 weeks! I waddle around like a duck out of water, I have to go to the bathroom every 40 minutes or so, if I don't nap in the afternoon I'm a gonner by 5 or 6 oclock! I'm SO SO SO thankful for this baby that none of it matters other than making life practically harder. I don't feel sorry for myself or anything like that. God gave us a baby when we weren't expecting it and he is a gift! I'd do it all over again in a heartbeat for this little guy!

It is hard for me to believe that in 3 1/2 months I'll be meeting a new human being! A little boy fashioned by the Potter for his glory and purposes!

Okay, so here is my question. I'm 29 years old, I'll be 30 July 17. When I was young I looked at women my age now as grown women. Like real grown-ups, you know?

Well, the thing is I don't feel too different than when I was 20! I can definitely tell that I have matured in some ways from where I was at when I was 20, 25, 26 etc. but I still feel like the same me and I don't feel like a "grown up". I wonder if I ever will. Or will it always be me, with a changing body and just becoming more mature as God refines me?

So my question is, am I sort of stuck in a mental age of 20 and need counseling :) to thrust me forward or do other women in my age range feel the same as me?


Ginny said...

Well, I am not the best person to answer you since maybe we have similar issues, being sisters and all-but I am definitely still 20-so that means you are 19.

Ginny said...

Oh my goodness, I can't believe you will soon have 7 kids and you are only 19! That's even worse than me having 6 kids at the age of 20.